yesterday i suggested playing scrabble but we didn’t have a board and i’m kind of worn out on crosswords so G looked for video games for 2 players. we started castle crashers and i got super into it. i am 27 years old and i have discovered video games. i am holding back on research bc i want to discover things on our own. at one point i was very proud of my character stomping a foe’s head and then i wondered about myself and internalized violence. today i re-watched the hunger games. i cried and cried at the rue part, just like i do every time, just like i do even though i know it will happen, just like i do even when i hope it will not. i think i am ok.